“A little philosophy leads to atheism, depth in philosophy leads to God.”

It seems you have did what so many before you have done, Locke, Bacon, Voltaire, Paine, Franklin (although he abandoned this view later in life-see his autobiography) and others built on Descartes ultimately ending up at what has been dubbed the “Philosophers’ god”, 18th century Deism. You may find this view of God helpful, but keep in mind your views on God are your own and only you can figure it out. Here are some links, the wiki’s are pretty good at capturing everything I’ve got a few blogs that may interested you too. In general there are two forms of Deism: English and French. The French version was a bit more anti-religious and was primarily responsible for the “blind watchmaker” version of God that pervades the internet these days. The English version of God was a bit more tolerant of other religions and varied more widely on God’s intervention in the world. Coming out of a Catholic background I ended up on the “english” side of the spectrum, we can talk more about this sometime if you wish:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/English_and_French_Deism_in_the_Eighteenth_Century
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Deism
http://www.religioustolerance.org/deism.htm
http://www.positivedeism.com/
http://www.sullivan-county.com/deism.htm
http://www.amorian.org/