I think my hunger reflex is broken.
This is not to say that I don’t get hungry, but in thinking and meditating on my relationship with food, my body, and my weight, I’ve come to the uncomfortable realization that perhaps I don’t really, truly, know what it’s like to be hungry. That perhaps what I consider to be, “hunger,” is really just a farcical symptom brought about by my mind and not my body — hence, I eat when I don’t need to, or more than I must when I do.
What does hunger feel like for YOU? There’s different types that I feel, of course, and many I can identify, ranging in intensity from, “I’m bored” to “I’m going to pass out if you don’t get me something RIGHT NOW.” But I’d say the typical hunger that I feel is neither of the two.
When I generally feel hungry, the sensation starts in my mouth, which I think is a great part of the problem. It’s hard to describe, but it’s like my mouth needs to eat — does that even make sense? I can feel the sensations of biting, chewing, swallowing, and the tastes and flavors that come along with the process in my mouth. Not physically, although sometimes it waters or otherwise, but mentally. I have a mental sensation of needing to physically use a part of my body. I guess that’s the best description.
That’s the typical hunger and the one that appears at “regular” mealtimes. It’s what I typically act on, even if my stomach is not sending the, “Uhm…food, please?” message yet. This may be very problematic.
If I let hunger go long enough, I eventually get to the pain-in-the-tummy sort, that kind of hunger where you feel EMPTY and the ache starts to be so bad that if you don’t do something about it, you’re sure something bad will happen. It’s that crampy-style of hunger. That for me is very rare, but I get it occasionally. What’s even more disturbing is that if I ignore it long enough, it’ll go away, but that doesn’t mean that my body isn’t needing food, it’s just stopped complaining about it. If I wait too long, I won’t feel hungry, but I’ll get lightheaded, dizzy, aches, etc. until I give in and eat. How am I supposed to work with this when it isn’t consistent?
Here’s a big problem: I don’t know what’s normal.
That is, we as humans say, “I’m hungry!” but nobody really knows what that means. I know for my friend Paul, his hunger is insane — when the man’s hungry, he’ll eat the varnish off woodwork. But I don’t know what his hunger feels like vs. mine — and maybe mine’s not normal. Maybe at every meal he feels like he’s going to keel over and die if he doesn’t eat Right. Now.
I need to find out what’s normal. But how?
Well, I’m hoping for one that you’ll comment and describe what your typical hunger feels like to you, the sort you have when you need to eat a meal on any regular day. Does it hurt? Ache? Where do you feel it, in your belly, in your head, in your mouth? What other sensations do you have, do you feel dizzy, like you’re going to pass out, or is that only when you get extremely hungry? How fast does it go away when you finally eat? What happens if you ignore it?
I’m hoping by exploring this topic that I can try to get a better hold on my own bodily sensations and what they truly mean vs. whatever my mind is concocting at the moment. In this, maybe I can learn what my body really needs vs. what it just thinks it wants, which is a huge step towards doing the right things for it and me. Thanks for playing along.



















